Shhhh...

May tomorrow be a quiet day. a normal day.
please please please =)
thank you.


I am getting my report tomorrow! yay!
and i will stick it right next to my comp!
my motivation to study !
hahaha
cuz i know i did so crap..so i shall read it everyday and go...i can do better than this!
mmm...grace told me..
her motivation was to prove to everyone that she could do it and she is those sort of people that do not like losing to others..
so im like...mm..
since everyone thinks i can do it and i am the only one that thinks i cant do it...i guess im not qualified for that.
omgosh.....is it just me
or like when ppl think u can do sth..cuz ur smart or sth..it just gives u too much confidence..and ur like over confident..and even though u dun show it..ur results show it..when u do crap in something cuz u didnt study cuz ppl told u u were smart and u were gonna ace it.
well that happens to me ALL THE TIME. =X
and its really gay.
here i am trying to force myself to study..and then someone comes along and goes..ur smart matthew..sif u need to study..and then i go...ahh..i can relax now.
lol..im soo stupid..but yeaaa
i used to b dumb..i still rmb
like i go for tutoring everyday in like primary 1...and omgosh
the tutor HATES me man..canes me like everyday..no joke. dun even know how i could survive that >.>...but yeaa..she canes me everyday cuz i either dun do my homework, dont study for tests ( which are like everyday) or im just bad at chinese.
dam...and like...i still rmb in like primary 2 or 3...
apparently i pissed her off so badly that she saw the colours of the wall changing or sth like that..thats how she described it..weird eh? but yea..scary..
then she freaking canes me and i think i cried everyday.
haha...but meh..discipline..
lol..so i started doing my work and stuff....and i found out that i really loved maths..
and like..in school n stuff i did well in maths...and of cuz..english..cuz the english there was like a piece of cake.
and then...i became competitve...i always wanted to stay top in maths in my class..which was like the third class out of like 20 in that school..so im like yea bring it! so i studied n stuff
well..i was forced to study or else i get canned.
but yea...haha then now...its like...ahh..cbb studying cuz every1 says im smart n stuff..
no motivation..no1 to physically torture me..mm..makes me lik a pig! lol
i reckon...
if ppl start calling me dumb and say im gonna fail hsc..
i would prolly ace hsc.
but at this rate where EVERYONE thinks ill get into commerce..
sigh...really..just sigh...i dun think ill get in
=X

grace's 2nd motivation was cuz of MONEY..lol
well...i guess thats 1 other benefit to b money minded..u would work ur butt off to earnn more money..ahh..i wish im like that..
well i guess i am..but not to the extreme that i would workk so much harder to get it.lol

well im off to sleep.
nite nite peeps!